Enough of being THE clown

Make fun of me once  - Ok haha heehee, I laugh along. Poke fun at myself also, maybe even embelish it a bit.
Make fun of me twice  - *Softer laughter.* i defend myself a bit. Try to reason out my debated actions or whatever it is.
Make fun of me thrice  - Not funny anymore.

Saying I'm a premature ejaculator (not true by the way) in front of people I'm not close with. NOT FUNNY
Emphasizing I'm a virgin in front of people I hardly know. NOT FUNNY
Treating me like a kid who does not understand the concept of a mockery. INSULTING

Just because you're a friend does not entitle you to belittle me.
Where the fuck is the respect?
I can just imagine your response: Suddenly Yazid cant handle a joke. Suddenly he's so sensitive.

PUT YOURSELF IN MY POSITION

I'm a 'geek' who enjoys being myself and that includes doing retarded things. FACT
I'm almost a 21 year old virgin. FACT
The best action i've had is with my left hand sitting in front of my laptop. FACT
I'm just 5 foot 5 inches tall. FACT and theres nothing i can do about it btw
I cant sing very well. FACT and even if i do sing, i sing to have fun, to my heart's content. not to pretend i'm a musical superstar thats very atas.

ANALYSIS
Ok, i might be a loser to some people's standards. So?!
Do I need to be reminded of that every single time you make an insensitive remark?

Just because i laugh along does not mean I dont feel hurt.
Just because I keep quiet does not mean I dont get pissed at what words your fabulous mouth can conjure.

You might think that I'm just another brat who doesnt care about what other people say. true to a certain extent
You might think that I utter out whatever is inside my brains and heart, but I DONT.
I'm quite proficient in hiding some feelings. But no more. Today i will explain why i think some things are fucked up.

I dont like being a clown. Or rather. YOUR clown. YOUR butt of all jokes.
Maybe its funny once in a while but enough is enough.

You think I dont already know I'm a wimp. So here i go.

YES, I AM NOT COOL
I AM A WIMP 
BUT I AM HAPPY WITH MYSELF
I LOVE BEING MYSELF
SO FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.

Dude its okay. You do not need to apologize or anything. You have already 'tried' it.
I just cannot understand how you can be so ignorant of this matter. You of all people.
I am so disappointed in you.