[ DARTH YAZID'S LAIR ]

darthyazid @ 2009-11-02T20:25:00

2009-11-02T12:29:44Z

Why is 80 percent (not actual percentage) of people i know signing up with MOE to become teachers?!
Its almost unelievable.
I will now swear to the entire internet that i will not follow the current.

I, YAZID JALIL.
WILL NOT JOIN THE ORGANISATION THAT IS MOE,
UNLESS IT IS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH.

*LIGHTNING FLASHES, THUNDER CLAPS*

darthyazid @ 2009-11-02T16:50:00

2009-11-02T08:53:20Z

Once again, you drag yourself through those gates.
Telling yourself that the only way this is going to end is to go through it.
So you hold your head high and try to walk with pride as you head towards your weekend destiny. Your destiny for the next 10 month.
Woe to the world! Woe! Woe...

darthyazid @ 2009-11-02T16:50:00

2009-11-02T08:53:20Z

darthyazid @ 2009-10-25T21:14:00

2009-10-25T13:21:48Z

I have come to realise that I am not the knight in shining armour.
I just am not THAT. I'm more of the blacksmith's assistant, or the stable boy or the farm lad who aspires to become something more.
Heck, i think i'm the moisture farm boy who would one day destroy the Death Star.
If this is true, then i think i'm going through the hardest part of this stereotype's life.
The CHANGING phase. The phase where the lad realises how the world is really like and how pointless it is to try and change it.
This is the phase where he asks questions which would lead him to one out of two possible path.
The light path, or the dark path.

How sweet the dark path look. Easy too. Just throw away your honor. Throw away your ideals. And go with the flow.

The International Social Action Film Festival - Tak Dong Cheng schedule

2009-09-05T05:34:32Z

For those of u interested to watch Tak Dong Cheng but could not find it in the film schedule, thats because it wasnt updated yet last week. Here are the links.

http://www.filmsforchange.org/091309-inequality-forum-curated-shorts/

The International Social Action Film Festival

2009-08-30T09:34:08Z

Anyone interested in watching TAK DONG CHENG @ The International Social Action Film Festival, pls refer to the film listings for show timings =)

http://www.filmsforchange.org/film-schedule/

darthyazid @ 2009-08-24T03:30:00

2009-08-23T19:40:09Z

Maria and me =)
Wad else can make a boy happier

Seducing Me

2009-08-01T10:38:32Z

Godai Aku (translation: Seducing Me)

HOT! AND COOL!
and to think that the last song i remember from Agnes was 'Bilang Saja.

darthyazid @ 2009-07-05T01:52:00

2009-07-04T17:54:10Z

I am free for the whole of next week!!!
No plans yet, cept for maybe clubbin on wednesday night.
Go out with me lehz, its not like everyday i get block leave from the army sehh.

I wanna have fun! So if u wanna have fun too, just call or text me ok?

darthyazid @ 2009-06-28T14:47:00

2009-06-28T06:56:56Z

"When you become the person you're meant to be, you'll find the person that you're meant to be with."

Sial la. This phrase is even more epic than spiderman's "with great powers comes great responsibilities"
It puts a lot of things into perspective for me.
Thanks Dhans!

darthyazid @ 2009-06-21T13:24:00

2009-06-21T05:38:01Z

EXTRACTED FROM AN MSN CONVERSATION:
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Either you do something about yourself, progress, so that you won't hate yourself because you're hardwired to do such things

OR

You accept that you really are that nice, and that you shouldn't feel this way at all, because other ppl's happiness is indeed more important than your own. it's your choice to do this, you should not be kicking yourself, unless you don't mean it

Narrow down to what it really is, work with it, or do something to change it

Move on, move forward and always think positive.

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Thanks dude. It amazes me how wise you can sound sometimes.=)

darthyazid @ 2009-06-20T13:11:00

2009-06-20T05:14:56Z

Last thing i remember, I was running for the door.
I have to find the passage back to the place I was before.
Relax said the RP, We are programmed to receive.
You can book out anytime you like, but you can never leave.

Enough of being THE clown

2009-06-06T17:31:55Z

Make fun of me once - Ok haha heehee, I laugh along. Poke fun at myself also, maybe even embelish it a bit.
Make fun of me twice - *Softer laughter.* i defend myself a bit. Try to reason out my debated actions or whatever it is.
Make fun of me thrice - Not funny anymore.

Saying I'm a premature ejaculator (not true by the way) in front of people I'm not close with. NOT FUNNY
Emphasizing I'm a virgin in front of people I hardly know. NOT FUNNY
Treating me like a kid who does not understand the concept of a mockery. INSULTING

Just because you're a friend does not entitle you to belittle me.
Where the fuck is the respect?
I can just imagine your response: Suddenly Yazid cant handle a joke. Suddenly he's so sensitive.

PUT YOURSELF IN MY POSITION

I'm a 'geek' who enjoys being myself and that includes doing retarded things. FACT
I'm almost a 21 year old virgin. FACT
The best action i've had is with my left hand sitting in front of my laptop. FACT
I'm just 5 foot 5 inches tall. FACT and theres nothing i can do about it btw
I cant sing very well. FACT and even if i do sing, i sing to have fun, to my heart's content. not to pretend i'm a musical superstar thats very atas.

ANALYSIS
Ok, i might be a loser to some people's standards. So?!
Do I need to be reminded of that every single time you make an insensitive remark?

Just because i laugh along does not mean I dont feel hurt.
Just because I keep quiet does not mean I dont get pissed at what words your fabulous mouth can conjure.

You might think that I'm just another brat who doesnt care about what other people say. true to a certain extent
You might think that I utter out whatever is inside my brains and heart, but I DONT.
I'm quite proficient in hiding some feelings. But no more. Today i will explain why i think some things are fucked up.

I dont like being a clown. Or rather. YOUR clown. YOUR butt of all jokes.
Maybe its funny once in a while but enough is enough.

You think I dont already know I'm a wimp. So here i go.

YES, I AM NOT COOL
I AM A WIMP
BUT I AM HAPPY WITH MYSELF
I LOVE BEING MYSELF
SO FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.

Dude its okay. You do not need to apologize or anything. You have already 'tried' it.
I just cannot understand how you can be so ignorant of this matter. You of all people.
I am so disappointed in you.

NEVER GONNA HAPPEN

2009-06-05T08:15:52Z

It seems that this song has been sung to me so many times before from many girls but sung silently.
But when Lily sings it it sounds so absolutely fantastic!

darthyazid @ 2009-06-04T19:49:00

2009-06-04T11:52:03Z

I love Lily Allen! She makes everything sound nice.
Its really a talent to make songs from very 'honest' and truthful lyrics and yet make it sound so happy happy and tra la la.

darthyazid @ 2009-05-24T16:39:00

2009-05-24T08:46:08Z

I feel like crying out loud!! AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!

At first my laptop was half fucked. Problems with starting up and shutting down . Then suddenly it died on me few months back. ok no biggie. harddrive was fried. prolly died of old age.

Then just five minutes ago, when i was playing a new PS2 ORIGINAL game i just bought, the unspeakable happened.
MY PS2 just 'shut down' on its own!! I tried to CPR it. Plugged it onto different power sources but it still refuses to switch on.

MY PLAYSTATION 2! My LAST RESORT OF ENTERTAINMENT HAS PERISHED!
IT DIED!!!!!!

...Haiz. How its sucks to be me right now.
Now then..time to get back my half fuck psp back from Faiz then.

Bye Bye

2009-04-20T09:11:10Z

I ve never been gone so long. Three weeks folks. Its no holiday. So wish me luck.
For those believers, please pray for me?
I'll try to come back in one piece ;)

darthyazid @ 2009-04-19T04:51:00

2009-04-18T20:59:40Z

I screwed up. Too bad la.

May I insert more tokens and try again?
No Yazid you may not. This is not a game.

May I load a saved game file?
No Yazid you may not. This is NOT a game.

May I use a cheat code?
NO YAZID THIS IS NOT A ~~FUCKING~~ GAME! DONT YOU EVER GET IT!

YOU LOST. GAME OVER. *PLAYS SAD ARCADE MUSIC*

darthyazid @ 2009-04-11T02:43:00

2009-04-10T19:11:07Z

Its so surreal to be at backstage clapping by yourself during curtain call. Its not a sad feeling.
Its just mildly frustrating not being able to do something when you really wanna do it. In this case, acting on stage.
I miss the feeling. The feeling where you're somebody. When you know you're worth something.
Where time stands still, and all your focus is channeled to a script that has been imprinted at the back of your head.
The feeling where everything that you do has a meaning and purpose.
And no matter how badly or how marvellous you perform, the audience will show their appreciation for your work by the mandatory applause.

I miss drinking redbull and H2O before every show.
I miss comforting my co-actors just before the show begins.
I miss the moments where your heart beats so fast when you're back stage just becos you're worried you'll screw something up.
I miss the curtain call.
I miss acting with the people who i have spent a great part of my youth with.
What can i say eh? Now is just not the time for me. My time and body belongs to the green now. Sometimes circumstances dictates your life.

darthyazid @ 2009-03-29T16:07:00

2009-03-29T08:15:24Z

I want nobody nobody but you..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mF7mKabAZQ

darthyazid @ 2009-03-07T19:50:00

2009-03-07T11:51:28Z

I refuse to fall to the dark side.

UPDATES

2009-02-21T18:58:37Z

Yes folks, I'm still alive and kicking.
For those of you who havent heard from me in a long time, here's a quick report FYI.

-Finished 2 months of Basic Section Leader Course in the SAF's School of Infantry Specialists.
-Posted to ADVANCED section leader course. Wich is gonna take 13 weeks to complete b4 i can see three stripes on my uniform.
-Training is tough, primarily becos I am damn unfit(compared to the rest) but Allah willing, I will try not to 'out of course' anytime soon.

-So far enjoying myself in training, becos most of my section/bunk mates were from my previous platoon. Haha, they're nicknamed the Melayu Koneks. (Cockster Malays). and hell yeah, they non-malays also gel well. Funny how they can become mat-ified in such a short period time.

-Am still single. Not desperate for a GF, but wud welcome one with open arms if any opportunity arrises. But i dont know, maybe this 2 years isnt such a good period to be in a relationship.

Overall, I am happy :)
Its a nice feeling to be contented with life. Isnt it?

SCT

2008-12-24T09:25:47Z

I am proud to announce that I am no longer a Private.
Yesterday I was of many NSFs to be presented with the newly created rank of Specialist Cadet Trainee.
What it means is that we get more pay haha. And the rank tag kinda looks cool, because its white and all.

For those of you who are interested in what company I am in, here are a few key words.
Fragrance.. 81.. Lion City.. Mandarin.. Shangri-La.

If you still dont get it, you re one dumbass.

SCT MD YAZID signing out.

No retreats no surrender...Unless you're really fucking shacked. LOL

darthyazid @ 2008-12-19T23:33:00

2008-12-19T16:11:21Z

I Private Muhammad Yazid, S8843833G, have been posted to SISPEC, School of Infantri SPECialists.
For those not accustomed to army lingo, SISPEC is where one trains to be a specialist or more commonly known as Sergeants.
May the Force be with me.

On another not. This is an advise for people who think they are losers.
Its okay to think that you are a loser BUT NEVER condemn yourself to feel like one.

Do something new unique or different to make you feel refreshed. Believe me, staying in your room weeping about your lot in life aint gonna do you any good.

Remember. No retreats. No surrender.

Private Yazid Signing out.

darthyazid @ 2008-12-15T23:36:00

2008-12-15T15:36:59Z

You know how when sometimes you reflect on life and realize that youre a nobody.
When you awaken in the morning and force yourself back to sleep hoping that in the process you die of oversleep or something.

Sometimes I just feel like a loser.